Ok girls- I am new to this.  I found this website and thought someone may have advice for me.  Here is my story:

Im 27 years old with 2 kids.  I use to have a perfect body. 5 foot 4 and 110 pounds.  I wore a size three and felt on top of the world.  After havings kids I gained weight.  I am now 135 and a size 9/10.  Yuck.  I had plastic surgery which helped but I still have a large butt and big arms.  My little sister is perfect.  She is 23 with a kid and a size 0.  

Everyday I wake up depressed about my weight.  Everynight I lay there for hours thinking of how to loose this weight quickly.  I just started taking laxatives and began doing the LC diet which hasnt helped a bit.  I have been obsessed with weight lose for 9 years but have no results.  For a while I did meth and lost a lot of weight but I dont want to do that again.

I need an honest answer from someone about being anorexic.  How do you start.  What foods should I eat.  I know the goal is to eat as little as possible.  How mcuh weight do you think I will lose in the first week and last question- are you happy being an anorexic.  Once you lost the weight are you able to return to a normal life or is anoriexia in your future for ever.  I am a mother and dont want to die of this disease but I am so lost on how to feel good about myself again.  Please help.